Hello, dear dad, I don't want this feeling
I don't want this grief
I know, you've had, silent dreams of wanting
something I can't be
I am leaning on my own, all I ever know of memories
is broken memories
all I wanted was your love
you will never know that side of me, the love inside of me
I wish, just this
that I could make you proud of me
just to you smile
I've made mistakes, I've let you down
give me some attention, say you still love me
I am leaning on my own, all I ever know of memories
is broken memories
all I wanted was your love
you will never know that side of me, the love inside of me
I'm dreaming I'm, your proticle son
and you come embrace me
hold me tight, don't say goodbye
but I can't make you love me
I am, leaning on my own
all I ever know of memories
is broken memories
all I wanted was your love
you will never know that side of me
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Wow - there is something a bit kismet about your poem. I have a son who is 18 and his name happens to be Dylan Charles (middle name is Charles). Much of what you wrote could have come directly from him in regards to the father who has be so limited in his active life. "My Dylan" had surgery ten years ago that was life threatening. His dad showed up at the hospital that day. After his father left, he said he might want to have another surgery (and it was a heavy duty one) if his father would come back again.
ReplyDeleteI don't know the circumstances of your poem, yet as another Dylan Charles who seems to have very similar feelings, I will just say that I too have had father issues at one time and no longer do - as I have found a subconscious love within myself that is less yearning than in past days.
I wish for you and my son to find this place of self-love that finds no more than momentary stings from the feeling of emptiness or perhaps not being enough from someone who obviously is not enough for himself.
You are creative and smart and wonderfully expressive. I pray you find the way to celebrate the love you carry to a place of peace and comfort.
Best wishes from a caring mom